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I am sitting here in absolute amazement. Where did the time go? Seriously....WHERE DID IT GO??? I really can't believe that it's been a half a year already. So much has happened and yet it feels like time stood still. Will the next six months go just as fast? Man...it's crazy but wonderful. I just look at my girls and wonder...where did my tiny babies go? We were so focused on them just gaining weight that I almost couldn't enjoy the miracle of their "little-ness". I was pulled in so many directions from getting them home from the hospital to providing food for them to keeping up with everything else that goes along with being a first time mother (or just a mother in general) that I couldn't enjoy the "now". I missed out on a lot of things--- a lot of "could-a', would-a', should-a's". I had so much help, but there are just some things you can't have help with. But, I did what I could and what was best for my girls at the...

....have made trips back to the hospital...this month!! We came back from our Utah trip (sick, if you recall,) and we took Ashleigh for a doc's check-up the next day. She wasn't gaining weight so we had to start giving her a high calorie formula to supplement the breastmilk. Anyway, she had gained a pound in two weeks so that was good. Well, the next day we had to take Jordy in because she had been having a fever off and on for several days and just didn't seem like herself. The doc looked at her and said she had a double ear infection and possible strep throat. Poor baby. He gave us some antibiotic and we went home. Later that night Jordyn started wheezing, turning pale and getting sort of lethargic. It really scared me so we called the on call doc and he said to take her to the ER. So we hurried over. She had a really high fever but her breathing had returned to normal (of course). Don't get me wrong, that's a good thing. But it's like when your car makes a fu...

Seriously, my life for the past 5 and a half months (5 1/2???? I can't believe it!) has been lived with some sort of dexterous limitation. I type with one hand, I eat with one hand, I feed babies with one hand (usually two at the same time if giving bottles) I even use the restroom while holding, and usually nursing a baby! I'm sorry, but neither the baby nor my bladder can wait. Most of the time, since I'm right handed, I am using my left hand. Have you ever tried eating with your opposite hand? It's difficult...especially salad...but I'm actually getting relatively good at it. I can't even think of all the things I've done, but every time I am forced to do something I'm not used to, I think how amazing it is. But you just do it...you have to! I would never get anything done if I waited for the "easy way". For example, right now I am nursing a baby, eating a sandwich AND typing. There are even times when both hands are occupied and I have t...

Sorry it's been a while since I last posted. We went out of town for 10 days and I haven't been able to get back into the swing of things--we are still pretty much packed...and it's been a week since we got home. Horrible--I know! But there just hasn't been enough time to get it all done and ALL 5 of us picked up colds---so that didn't help. There was even a pile of laundry on the bed in the babies' room to be put away when we left---so I started out in the hole. Ick. I hate unpacking and I hate putting away laundry. I'm a little obsessive about it too, unfortunately. So it takes me even longer to do it...and I procrastinate even more. See, I like everything to be separated by size. Not weird at all, right? Well, then I like them in order of the rainbow, starting with white, then white with patterns then into pink then red and so on---ROY G. BIV. It's crazy, I understand that. (I even do it in my own closet---except instead of order in size, it's lon...

I can't tell you how wonderful it was to experience my first mother's day. It's been something I've looked forward to for years and always felt some degree of sadness over in the past, not having children yet. But finally, this year I am a mother. I have children!! Plural!! THREE babies! I still can't believe it and yet, it seems like it's been this way forever. It's crazy to think that it's nearly been a year since we found out we were expecting---and thinking how blessed we were to finally be pregnant (with, presumably, only ONE baby. LOL!) And now here we are at 5:3o AM. I just finished feeding Avery and Jordyn and am about to feed Ashleigh as soon as she wakes up. Avery now has the hiccups and both she and Jordyn have spit up all over themselves... and the couch.... and me. Of course, I was unprepared and without a burp cloth (I am typing this with one hand and one eye open, I'm sure you can understand) so I've been dabbing at both of their m...

Two days ago, when I was changing her, Jordyn finally let out a real giggle! They've all had moments where you go, "I think that was a laugh!", but they are so brief that you have to kind of convince yourself that's what it was. For example, when we were giving Ashleigh a bath the other day, she made a sound like a nervous laugh, but she wasn't really smiling. It was really cute, though. Anyways, I went to pull the shirt over Jordyn's head and she just let out this giggle with a big gummy grin! I called Tony in to hear and I pretended to pull the shirt over her head again and she did it again! Yay! A new trick! We did this repeatedly until she no longer did it. :) It was so cute and so exciting to get real laughs, finally! Up until this point they all have been trying so hard to get their laughs out that they get hiccups EVERY time! I feel so bad for them. They are in cute moods and are so close to laughing then they get hiccups and get all mad. So now we wil...

At the same time!! Just wanted to note this. Now I'm going to lay down too. :} It's been a long couple of days---wooo.