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I have had a lot of requests for pictures of our renovation, but I don't know if y'all want me to post "BEFORE'S" and "AFTER'S" when it's all completed, or if you want "real time" progress shots??? Let me know so I can get them posted. They will be on the OTHER BLOG instead of here, just so you are aware! so, VOTE! thanks!! :)

Redundant? Perhaps.... I have been on a blog strike. I haven't even signed into Google in days. Don't be offended that I haven't been reading your blog posts. I care about you, but.... I think I am in denial....Actually, I know I'm in denial. My life is in the middle of turning upside down. It will be fine when it actually reaches the "upside down" point, but right now, it's like I'm stuck sideways and all of my "stuff" is just flying around. The worst part is, I don't know when it will normalize again . The past two (I guess, three) years have been a perpetual state of limbo. I never knew what to expect on any given day---from finding out we were having triplets , to fears of losing them during a rough pregnancy, to fears of losing them after their premature births, to not knowing how I was going to make it through any given day , and, although a lot has changed and my previous fears have subsided, new ones have developed. It's a ...

I forget that we have the same birthday, my little blog! I am sorry I neglect you...often....but I will try to be better! I promise! We've shared laughter, tears and we've even had a fight or two. But, I LOVE YA, BLOG! Even if I don't always show it....

WE'RE MOVING!!!!!!!! Woohoooo! It's been something we've been working on for six months now, but we are now getting to the point where it's a reality and we can share our secret with everyone! It's been killing me to keep quiet until we were really sure it was happening. :) We are remodeling a three bedroom house in the same area we are currently living. Actually, it is Tony's childhood home. It will be fun to breath new life into this home and make it 'ours'. Tony will have his own enclosed office, the girls will have a large playroom, I will have my own small craft/sewing area, lots of little perks like a walk-in pantry and most importantly---a backyard for the girls!!! I've been dreaming of decorating or building a house since I was a little girl. I will say that it is a lot more stressful than I ever expected it to be. I don't want that to sound ungrateful or snotty, because I am so so soooo appreciative for this opportunity. But there is so ...

I'm having a rough one today. My throat hurts from screaming at my children. Yes, screaming. Judge away, if you must. I don't care. I'm sure most of you have more control than I do, but I've reached my breaking point. I repeatedly told my children to stay away from the blinds and the curtains but they just won't listen. Apparently while I was out of the room trying to get something accomplished, they found a marker under the couch and proceded to draw on the blinds, window, couch, lamp shade, pillows, couch again, their outfits, hands and finally their faces. I was too enraged to take pictures, and I'm sure I'll regret that. So much to do and I can't do anything. I'm so frustrated and sick of all of it. I love my children, but I'm going insane. An honest post from me.

I've been unable to be on the blog for almost two months and I feel so disconnected from everyone and the world around me! Sadly, this is how I communicate with a lot of people and it's killing me! Not to mention it's probably going to take hours to back-read everyone's blogs! (IF YOU ARE NOT ON MY BLOGROLL TO THE RIGHT---PLEEEEEEAAAAAASE GIVE ME YOUR BLOG ADDRESS!! I AM MISSING A LOT OF BLOGS AND I MISS YOU!!) Life has been unbelievably crazy and it is only the beginning of the craziness. You probably won't hear from me again for a while, but I'm going to try and post some pics of our recent trip to Utah. (We just got back last night, so give me some time to get reorganized and my pics downloaded) :) It was so great to see family and friends. Thanks to everyone for helping out and spending time with us. We loved every minute!! Later!

So, maybe Avery has a very common look---or I don't know what. But I, and a lot of other people, tend to find or see kids that remind them of her. Here are two of the best examples. 1. There is a painting called "Snow Angels" by Robert Duncan and the little girl in the painting looks a lot like Avery. My sister and dad told me about it. See for yourself: 2. There was a web video circulating about 18 months ago, which was then turned into a commercial, that so many people have said reminded them of Avery (besides the fact that the child is a boy, but Avery had boy hair for a long time when she was a tiny baby). The laugh and everything was dead on. Eerily so. I'm sure you've seen it, but it's really cute, so watch it again. I DARE YOU to try not to laugh. I remember the first time seeing it (pretty sure on Ellen?) and thinking "wow--that is AVERY!" But it wasn't...obviously... :) www.youtube.com/watch?v=cXXm696UbKY (I tried to post the video here,...